Laziness = Nightmare

Nightmare will always appear when we continuously thinking about scary stuffs. Not only when I am sleeping but this incubus also disturbs me in my daylight. Every eleventh grade might feel the same ill right now. Yes, we are having the twelve-grade phobia, a disease which becoming the epidemics for the eleventh graders who are almost get the twelve grade badge. The symptoms of this ill are afraid when the teacher say final exam, or even shout hysterically shout remembering that there is a lot of things that they haven't prepared yet.

This is what infected me right now, anxious about what do I have as my weapon to face the National Exam later. I recognize that I have nothing to show, nothing as a pride, and nothing I can use as the saw. Unfortunately, this last 2 months I found that school is not interesting anymore. I don't know why, but I just felt that I come to the class just for listening the teachers, writing the materials, and joining the daily exams. These made me trapped in laziness, hard to put myself on fire while doing my tasks, and never touch my book when there was no task or exam. The thing that I am worrying is when this disease can't be healed until I am in the demanding schedule on preparing the National Examination. Thus, it is not easy for me to erase the paradigm that becoming a twelve grader is an incubus for a lazy girl like me. I'm not saying that I'm proud to be lazy, but it is very hard for me to look back what I've got with this laziness, only remedial and bad score.
Nowadays, it's one of my value which always slap me when I am saying too much 'no' for study, let's just call it 'Hard-work' and 'Parent-oriented'. Both of them are connected, 'Parent-orientation' encourage me to put more effort, and I do the hard-work for my parent.
Through the perfect combination of these two values I am hoping that I will have the flame that I lost along these 2 months. I'll always hold up these values so that I will never trapped in laziness and I can easily jump out from the laziness when I got trapped. Becoming a diligent girl, clever students and even a bookworm is what I want to be as a twelve grader, wish I will be success, fighting!